Saturday, December 09, 2006

monkfish, calvary fellowship, and HHJJ

(a monkfish)
I had a lovely time at ThursdayPM/Monkfish Abbey. I felt very … safe, and understood, and … familiar. Brilliant. Like the fact that such a time/place exists makes me lean toward believing in god and that she loves me.

On the other hand … I’ve made a committment to do something service oriented every week for these 7 weeks while my family is gone–kind of an attempt on my part to stay out of trouble. So today I went with my excellent friend Walter to help out at the monthly … thing where guys from the church get together and go out and do service for people in the community. Oh–it’s a thing that they do at Calvary Fellowship in Mountlake Terrace.

I almost cried when Andy told us about the family we were going to help today–they have a one year old who has cancer. So about 10 of us went over to their house and just did a bunch of odd things that needed doing to try to help out. It was fun kind of working and talking with the guys.

The senior pastor, Wayne, was along, and he was a reaonably kewl guy, but he did try at least 4 times in our conversation to convince me to come to some event at their church. So that didn’t feel very … excellent. I find it especially … unfortunate since just now looking up their web site I see they have this almost at the top of their main page


Secondly, by being friendly, but without being annoyingly aggressive. Some people want to check out a church without being “cornered”, and we respect that.
I didn’t even want to check out their church–I said right up front “I don’t go to church”. Now I feel like maybe I was somehow wrongly taking advantage of the opportunity they provided for me to fulfill my service task for this week while failing to allow for the implied associated … aggresive invitations. Or maybe I’m excessively sensitive. Hmmmm….

(some) christians make me nervous. Like again, on Calvary Fellowship web site, in the “our purpose” section, right at the top they say


Our purpose at Calvary Fellowship is to glorify God by pointing people to Jesus Christ, Who alone is sufficient for our every need.
Now not only is it monga wierd to capitilize pronouns referring to god, it also strikes me as very very strange to say of anything or anyone “who alone is sufficient for every need”. What does that mean exaclty? Because it seems to me that in order to say something like that, you either have to seriously wrest the word “sufficient”, or else you have to be brain dead (I mean as in a human vegetable–oh dear–I don’t mean to be crude–Eliza could help me out here–I mean literally completely cut off from almost all sensory experience or even consciousness) so you don’t see or feel the gargantuan enormitude of the need.
(I seem to have climbed onto a soap box. I’m stepping down now)

I think this might be related to HHJJ…

5 comments:

me said...

hey ben!
1. will check out what monk fishabbey is - a good time was had!
2. cool that u r doing communitity service stuff...
4. god is a she... how come? just interested in why you think that. just please assure me that you don;t thinks she's alanis morrisett (name that movie)...
peace, RH

Benjamin Ady said...

Somehow I've found myself slowly changing over to using the feminine pronoun for god over the last few months. I don't really understand god much at all, but i don't think god is a she or a he. it's just my little way of poking at all the people who insist that god is a he and who get all freaked out about using gender inclusive language about god. its just so ridiculous to think that god is a he. whatever. god is not merely a human. as macdonald said "god is a man, and ever so much more than a man". I would add to that that god is a woman, and ever so much more than a woman.

Sorry--never heard of alanis morrisett.

Kate said...

Ben,

I can't see any problems with capitalising God. After all we capitalise names, days of the week, months etc all the time.

Kate said...

Ben,

I can't see any problems with capitalising God. After all we capitalise names, days of the week, months etc all the time.

Benjamin Ady said...

... yeah--why is that. let's do away with all capililization. maybe we shouldn't capilize the names of anybody who doesn't have any tangible physical verifiable presence ....